2010.

2010. a tired year for me.
it was a year marked by waiting and impatience.
a year layered in reminders of things i already knew...
but how quickly selfishness blinds me.
i relearned that patience is harder when vision is dim.
vision is harder when hope is lacking.
hope is harder if bitterness is king.

the year reminded me that selflessness will never come naturally apart from grace.
and that God is plentiful in his distribution of grace, of mercy, of love.
for me.
for my friends.
for life.

if i am bitter, i will not grow.
if i dwell on what i lack, i will always lack in joy.
if i want to be better, i have to stop being what i have learned makes me worse.