real grown up

the weather is mean right now. may is not supposed to have mean weather. i worked all morning; making lattes for people wet from the rain. and now i'm home. i'm in my apartment with nothing real to do. i just finished grad school and have the actually graduation ceremony in 48 hours. currently i'm dealing with the psychological implications of loosing my identity as a "grad student". i have to grow up and get a real job and pay real bills and yet i have no idea what real job to get and have no desire to face those real bills...and i hated being in grad school until now: now that I am done. Real done. to grow up...