Saturday, May 24, 2008

my coffee place

i'm sure i've previously alluded to the challenge of getting to town.
the teachers live 10 minutes from town by car and, though there is a bus, the bus is consistently unreliable.

this morning, i jumped a ride with some teachers going on town errands.
my purpose? none. i looped the same streets over and over, waiting for the store doors to open and, specifically waiting for my favorite cafe to open.

Feel Espresso is run by a girl who is probably about my age. she speaks little english, but i think she's pretty cool. she even knows my name.

the cafe is supposed to open at 11am, it was 11:18 when she got there. i tried not to make it obvious that i had been waiting, looping the town for over an hour. because, in this country, when anyone thinks you like something or you're offended, they give you things.

(case in point: last month i complimented earrings and left the restaurant wearing them)

when i entered the cafe, she greeted me enthusiastically and then explained in hand motions and smiles that, for some reason, coffee couldn't be made for 20 more minutes. i assured her, in hand motions and smiles, that it was fine, i would wait, it was no problem.

i grabbed a chair, whipped out a book and waited. She brought me mango juice on the house. and then, just as she said, 20 minutes later, she made my americano.

my point? these times when i get into town, or get to seoul are the times when i actually feel like my old self again. that is, i actually feel grown up and human. it is as i walk into a cafe and am greeted by a familiar smile that i am most content. and, though living in asia has certainly made my life feel far away, it has not changed how i survive it.

there are things i need. perhaps because i am spoiled or greedy or needy.
or, perhaps just because i am wired this way.

it has been hard to find those things often here in korea. this place is not conducive to the lifestyle i love, meeting friends at coffee shops and admittedly viewing coffee consumption as my biggest vice. but, when i get it, when i get to have a cup of coffee in a cafe whose owner knows my name, i am prone to think that i'll be okay.

and today, at Feel, i felt okay.

2 comments:

Danelle Marie Singhanart said...

I've been in Thailand for a year and a half and I still find coffee houses comforting. Although I don't like people knowing my name here since EVERYONE recognizes me anyway. I like going to places where no one knows me so I can hide for a little while and relax. Wanna come visit sometime? I think Bangkok is the Starbucks capital of Asia hahaha.

Danelle Marie Singhanart said...

That would be great :D. Could you come for a weekend because I'll still be teaching. However, if you want to come for longer, you could always come on a Thurs. and Fri. and have time to explore yourself a little bit with a free place to stay and then we could hang out on Saturday and Sunday. Sadly, I teach everyday of the week, but you could come visit my classes too :D. It wouldn't be boring ;). Let me know what you think.